5 months and just an update

Hi there. Today is the 5 month mark since i lost Angel Robert. This morning was rather hard for me. I just miss my baby so much. I keep thinking what would i be feeling and doing at this point in my pregnancy. This just sucks so bad. I know what i am missing and gosh damn i hate it. I have had two taken away from me and just really want one more to keep here on earth with me.

So here is my update. I go to an IF doc on March 4th. We are going to talk about how to keep a pregnancy inside of me. :) I hope he can provide me some answers and lead me in the right direction. Oh i got some bw done by my pcp and the damn place wont give me my results. she says she is trying to play catch up bc she is behind from when she was out. I did ask if they could fax them to me and got the NO she has to talk to you about them. uh thanks for making me think something is wrong with them. So i am still in the wait for them.
But that is about it.