3 days post op

And the pacemaker is already getting a workout. Last night her pm kept firing off. The nurse got very concerned. She called the attending and they did her ekg. Well they have not a clue why it fired off at 60bpm but it did. I suggested it was bc when she trends down it skips a beat. The resident was like oh no. Cant be it. Um yes can be it. I suggested it to the dr and he was like yep mom I think you may just be right. It detected the off beat and whack spanked it butt in gear. ;) She almost bought her a one way ticket back to the icu. Frankly I am so over with being in the hospital. I am ready to go nuts. So that would not have been plesant.
Today she is dumping, vomiting, and well sweating like you have her in a sauna. I want to say fix the vomiting and let me take her home. They want to nit pick which I am happy about bc we cant do any infections. But resident x seems they know everything under the sun in the past 4 months of their resident career. HA. Resident x and i had a very cordial talk and they found out I am NOT stupid by any means and yes I do understand it is pretty rare which resident x says mom you know not alot of people have it so their isnt a whole lot we can do about it. NO WAY.. i thought that was what rare meant. Again I am to my not pleasant state when people dumb down me.
Today I am full of anexity. I live I dont know how many miles away from nc and we are going to go home with this implanted device. I am scared if something goes wrong or whatever. I am scared for so many things. This brings a new life for us in several ways. As you may remember a pacemaker is not a cure. It is to help her quality of life. It wont stop her from passing out or the hr from getting low. It will stop the heart from stopping though and making it go back to 80bpm so maybe the spells wont reak too much havoc on her body. Which btw the antibiotic she is on right now. It is killing her autonomic system. Playing some very dirty games! ugh.
Right now I could go for a good margarita and some good music. I miss my older children. I hope they understand why mom has been gone for two weeks. I hope one day they dont think I am the worst mom imagineable. I would have done it for them too. I love them beyond words can say. I hope it shows.