It's certainly a Monday!

Well it's certainly a Monday! Our day started off with a lovely page on my pager at 0700. For those that do not know I am a cancer research nurse. Long explanation to it. I am specifically over breast cancer. Then the little diva needed a scan on her tummy today. They were looking at the gallbladder, liver, spleen, kidneys, and bladder. I for one get paranoid when they spend way too much time on one certain organ. From previous experience that is NOT good. So now we sit and wait. Her blood work came back and still have a craptastic level on her D counts. From there the kids got to go to work with momma for all over 30 mins. Kenadie assures me she wants to a nurse doctor. lol. Alexus said my job is gross and she wants to be a teacher. Well hmmph. From there it was one mini crisis after another with my patients. I give them my heart. I am a very passionate nurse. After work I picked up the lil ones. Then got greeted with the news that a dear friend of the family her dad has passed unexpectedly. 2013 has not been the year for us thus far. It is scaring the crapola out of me. So far just this year: my husband's brother, grandpa's brother, and now our friend's dad. Just not ok. Please keep them in your prayers. They are going to need it as her mother is fighting met breast cancer. So my emotional part of the day is I occasionally catch myself thinking I am not enough. Like today I took kenadie to the hospital for her scan and then felt like my patients were shorted bc I couldn't be there. I am the only one right now that could take her due to ailments going on. It's just my mom and I that take her to appts. Her dad does not feel ok to do such things and as the years have went by it's ok. I am fine with it. But bc I try and tackle the world I end up feeling like I am not enough. Like someone is getting shorted somewhere. Sigh. I am hoping it is just a monday. I will take a nap and hopefully wake up refreshed. Btw the results should be in by Friday. Well off to get school clothes ready then to snuggle warmly in bed.