I need some prayers please!

To anyone that is reading this. I am in need of some prayers. I found out on March 4th that we were pg again. I was only 8 dpo. I have been to several blood draws and so far we are doing good. I just still have some severe doubts and concerns. I have been through this one too many times now to get my hopes up. I felt really positive about the cycle.. Now if that positivity would flow on to this also.
Tomorrow is my cousin's baby shower. I am a bit bummed. That should have been me also. I was due around the same time she was. I should be getting excited to have my first little boy and what i was going to do and stuff. Now i have to sit and watch her open her gifts and be happy for her. It hurts a whole lot. I am dreading the day that my edd comes around. I just want to sleep it away. I am praying that this little bean is the one that makes it and by then we could hear a hb. Tonight i am really missing my baby angel. I would have been almost 33wks pg and i would have given birth at 37wks like i normally do. I just dont understand all this. While i was at walmart getting yet another hpt a very young girl and her mother come up to get one also. She was saying she does not want to see the words pregnant that it is easier to digest the the +. I thought they were talking about sensitivty.. bc bf that they were.. so i mention which ones are the most sensitive.. and the mom says oh we like the walmart brand.. i used them with all my kids and my kids have used them with theirs. mind you the mother is in her LATE 30'S! OMG! huh?! Explain how this is fair again!!!! So the young girl looks at me and says oh yeah i got my + on this with my 1.5yro dd. UH WHAT?! Then the mom says hun i hope you are not you are only 16 you have a life ahead of you.. Well thanks for that slap in the face my friend. The girl looks at me and asks if i am pg.. I say well we hope this time it sticks i have lost 2 bf this and had to do infertility treatment with my other 2. She says oh you only hear of those things.. you never really think people have to deal with them. WTF?! Oh i wanted to smack her.. but i restrained and promptly paid. :)

Lord if you are listening.. My friends on the ttc boards really want to be blessed with sticky healthy babies. They deserve them. WE deserve them. I am grateful what you have already blessed me with but i just want one more and i am happy. PLEASE OH PLEASE LORD.. let this baby stick and be healthy.
AMEN!

I have my next blood draw on tuesday. If we make it that far then that is a blessing and if the numbers are high then we might have some hope of this one staying around. I need tons of prayers. Thanks so much!