Emotional Night

Tonight has been an emotional night. I took my 2 girls to their open house at school (pre-k and toddler prep) and i seen this guy walking with his what seemed to be a 1yro little boy. He told the little boy come on little buddy lets go see your teacher. That just slammed me so hard. My dh does not get to walk his little buddy to class. He can walk his princesses to class yes. But still not the one he lost and not his little football buddy. I just started bawling so hard. I had to walk away. Then when we left dh asked what was the matter. I told him and just sobbed. Tonight i am just feeling my losses hard.
Another part of my emotional night is the contractions are starting to break me down a bit. I am just to the point where i am ready to throw my hat in the ring. I never had it like this with my other two girls. Why? What have i done? I am following dr orders to a T. I just dont get the whole thing. Sometimes one can take only so much and tonight i just feel like i have had enough. I know in reality i still have a battle to fight. I have 48more days i have to fight. I have 6 more shots to do after tomorrow. That is another thing.. those shots make me so emotional right before. It is so crazy how emotional i got. I even asked the docs about it. They said yup totally normal. Aw thanks for the forewarning dude! But hey like i said only 6more to go.
I do have to say thank you to my cousin.. she has been so good to listening to me. When i have my freak outs at work. When those contractions are slamming me hard she is great. THANK YOU!
I think if i can just get my good cry out tonight then i will be great. Wednesday we are 28wks!