hi all. Today is a wonderful day outside. Cool but not cold. Today i almost feel lost and out of sorts. I feel like i am missing something. You know like when you go on vacation and leave something at home and have duh moment. Yeah i am constantly feeling like duh i am missing something. I just miss my angel tons. I keep thinking i am supposed to hear the hb this week! But yeah i know it wont happen but you know.
Then i have been having these crazy dreams. Like one of them was someone was having twins and went for their u/s and i could see the u/s so clearly and it was like a 3D one. KWIM?! Right bf i got pg with Angel i had a dream that i was pg and my edd was may 8th. My real edd was May 4th. It was very crazy. I do have some preminisions and have had dreams when my cousins get preggo. Then bam end up preggo. So i am just wondering if it is going to be and Lord if it is could you please make sure i get to hold my babies and they are healthy. (besides that Lord, if i may get a lil greedy... can i PLEASE PRETTY PLEASE WITH SUGAR ON TOP have a BOY?!) I mean in the bible you say be specific so i am! So yeah i am just wondering who in my family will have the twins. As of right now my cousin and i are the only one that is "able" to have children. (or of child baring age) Any who.
Also yesterday i overheard a call about a 14-15 yro pg and EXCITED!?! okay that was an ultimate foot in the gut, punch in the eye, and knock me on the ground call. I mean hello i wanted my baby. i am in a loving relationship, think my hb is a wonderful man, love my chidren. WHY OH WHY????! So yeah it got me crying all the way home. I was just an emotional wreck. Not cool at all. Then i get home and hb looks at me like wth can i go a day without you crying. But he did comfort me and then we just spent two moments alone. Well and bd too! *wink*. He is being great through all of this. It is very hard on him knowing that he lost his child too. He wants another one ASAP.
Well hope you all have a wonderful week. Blessings to you all.
Alisha
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14 or 15?! Seriously?! Oh honey, I think I would have put my foot through something. That's unreal.
Here's hoping that your dream comes to life for you :)
As for the KID being pg... I would have lost it. I have such a hard time with some of the "moms" I see and wonder why they get to have a baby when we are obviously so much better prepared to!
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