Lonely night tonight!

Hey there. I am sitting here typing away while both girls are sleeping and hb is out playing with his friends at the bar. You may ask why am i not there? Well no 1 no sitter and then no 2 just time to be with the guys. My hb as much as i would like to gripe and belly ache is a wonderful guy. Puts up with alot of my crap.
But i am just having one of those nights. I miss my best friend tara. I could always count on her to make me smile in jr high and high school. She was left brain and i was her right. Vice versa. I miss being able to cry on her shoulder. She would let me talk and talk and would never tell me she is too busy to listen. Just an angel.
Tonight i just feel so lonely. Hb being gone and friends is a touch and go kind of issue. Some just feel uncomfortable around me like they dont know what to say or such. But i am human i can still be talked to and still laugh and love. I dont get this. I dont stray away from then when they need me. But that is what a true friend is for for the thick and the thin. Now i have a couple of friends that are just wonderful but we all have our own busy lives.
One thing is i want to say thanks to ben for just letting me ramble. Wonderful friend. Ladies if you need a man i know where to hook you up at! Then my man d. Now we have been on some rollercoasters together and wow he is still a sweetie! To all my others that are awesome keep doing what you are doing bc it does touch peoples lives.
Sometimes though i just wonder and think about the hs days. When i counted on my friends. I had quite a few of them. When my least worry was what i needed to wear or bring to class. I just miss having all of that socialization. Now it is like my hb, kids, some friends, and my dog. Well thanks for letting me ramble.
Alisha