A little frustrated (warning there is a rant post here! lol)

Hello all. Well we still have a baby in here. Which is great news. Contrx on and off but what is new. The one thing that is new everytime i move from sitting to standing i feel like i am leaking a bit. I am praying that is my crazy brain. Also i had to make a grocery store trip real quick and since then it feels as though she is going to fall out and my cervix is ripping open. Last night was a whirl wind. Contrx every 2 mins for a bit got them shut up. Then i thought i would go see my cousin since he just came back from his boot camp for the marines. On the drive my uterus decides she wants to make herself known too. I DONT THINK SO! lol. So after our night i get home and find that i am BLEEDING AGAIN! ERH! This time it was not from some crazy nurse who was murdering my cervix either. I dont know what started this deal. Before anyone mentions NO SEX OR STIMULATION WAS DONE! Lord bless the on call nurses bc i know they dont know that everyone and their mom asks me that but last night i almost bit her head off. lol. Hmm maybe my uterus would shut up if she did have some action! lol . jk! So that is that. I have an appt tomorrow at 320pm so we will know what is going on downstairs.
Ah btw baby girl says hello. She is kicking up a storm. :)
WARNING MY RANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Okay for my rant. So i talk to my mom today and she says oh have you talked to A (cousin on my dad's side of the family that is pregnant with her surprise bundle that she does not want. ah you prob remember that rant sometime ago. lol) I was like no what is her deal. So she called to ask if i would be there at the birth. Umm NO! I can't drive to Yukon much less to Tulsa without contrx! I mean at least there i had tons of family that could have hopped in my car and drove crazy rat speed and got me to the hossy. :) So my mom told her no and that she was sorry and she got MAD! She was like why not? Does she not know this is my special day and i want her there? So my mom trys explaining the severity of the situation (shots, two different pills, modified bedrest, and frequent trips to l&d and docs) She still says is she mad at me and blah and blah. Then she asks if i coming for her shower. Okay i wish i could but i can't! Personally i don't think i want to really. I have alot of emotional issues that i deal with with my losses and she just happens to be due around the time of my second loss and plus why would i want to go up there and be with someone who lets you know all the time how easy it is to get pregnant when you forget the condom and how she does not want this baby. PULEASE! I would probably strangle her! We did tell her we would come up after her baby is born and bring our gifts and what not to her. I might even send a care package. Just to show i am really not that careless and heartless. Plus she is back with the same man she was with when she had her first dd. He is the one that was so rude and belligerent when i drove up there to be with her when she was giving birth to her bc her man said that this was a bastard that was being born and he was not the father. Yeah he told the nurses to escort me and my mom out. Eh whatever. My nephew was born that night too so i got to be with him. :) But really i just don't think she understands this situation. So now she is upset about it all. I mean what can i do? I am NOT going up there and then go in labor up there that is for sure!