Well i guess i knew our steps backwards were coming!

As the title explains it all. We just took 10 steps backwards. Kenadie is on O2 now. My aunt was holding her and i noticed she was looking too purple in the face. Me being in the med field knew what to look for and finally went and got the nurse. Yep i was right. Her O2 stats were too low. So they said they had to put her on O2. Also after i did my update she vomitted once while my ob came in to talk to me. Then she vomitted in her bed. When she did that her hr went to 228bpm. NOT GOOD! So they put in an express call to her pedi to call the cardi. Since he does not work here. We have not heard back from him yet but i dont expect to hear until 6pm cst or tomorrow morning. Then her respirations became too fast and have been that way this afternoon. But they are better. We are back on continous feeds using breastmilk with human milk fortifier in it. (extra calories). They said they were going to take her tube out but nope not going to do that in. Btw she has a NG tube down in the left nostril. She gets her feeds, meds, and whatever else through there.
We might get moved to the bigger hossy that has the cardi doc there. That bums me out bc i dont like the hospital or anything. I know the docs are great there and well versed but i dont like their medicine team too much. So we are praying we get to stay here until it is vital to move there. I mean i will do whatever we have to do when we need to do it.
My doc called for a lactation consult. They wanted lactation to talk to me about pumping and then about drying up if need be. Right now i am just an emotional bag and really did not want to address it. I will deal with it when i need to. kwim. Not pertent to me right now. I am pumping every 3-4hrs and i can get anywhere from 10-18oz per session. So no worries on that part. I also have about 300 oz at home in the freezer. So not worried. If i dont get to use it i will donate it to the breast bank.
Right now i am more than just upset. When we think we are doing something good and moving forward. We get set back to like negative square one. I just want to take my baby home. I know people have bigger issues out there and what not and they have longer stays in the hossy. (this damn nurse keeps saying that to me.) I am not trying to be selfish but this is a big deal to me and my family. kwim. Well that is about it. Thanks so much for all the support. If something happens i will update. Thanks again!