Today i am just nervous about being pregnant. Nervous that something is going to go wrong. I think i need to take a step away from message boards for a while and just focus on me and my family. Being pregnant after a loss is so hard on ones mind. I am tired of getting well you are pregnant again be happy with that. Umm.. lets think 2 losses does not equal happiness while pregnant anymore. It equals fear. No one can really understand the fear that i am going thru until you have lost a pregnancy and get pregnant again. I just hate those emails to me that just say be happy you are pregnant again. Okay i have told the good lord how thankful i am for this but please dont tell me to be happy and excited. I will in my own time when i feel like i can and if that is not until i have that baby in my arms then so freaking be it.
I keep getting the is this your last one question. Please dont ask a woman if it is her last one. None of their business. Just mine and my dh. I am financially secure and i pay my own bills so i dont think that anyone needs to tell me how many children i NEED to have or not have. But for those that are just so curious that they just need to know. When i have one more healthy baby in my arms i am going to be done!
Well that is all my ranting today. Blessings to all. Btw can you keep my friends in your prayers who are dealing with IF issues? thanks so much.
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